Anger, is
the first reaction…
But it is
the hurt, the resentment and the pure revulsion that follows which is driving
me nuts…
I want to be
a good person…
I want to
help, I want to do the right thing, but that’s just it isn’t it….
How do you
know what the right thing is?
When do you
draw a line between being selfish and being right?
When do you
know the difference between taking the easy way out over taking the right way
out?
When do go
from being a helping hand to a hindering support?
Listen to
your heart and you will know they say….
But what if
the heart is just as confused as the head?
There are
always opinions, religious, cultural, logical explanations on both sides of the
argument.
It’s like
saying the solider fighting against me is not a bad person, he’s just doing his
job.
I have
looked outside and I have looked within…
Maybe I’m
not capable of looking deep enough to find the answer…
Taking
things in stride as they crash over me like powerful waves of realization over
and over again, that’s the only solution I have now…
But will I
be too late until the answer comes to me?
Will my
guilt and my revulsion have achieved their purpose?
Or will
there always be hope for redemption?
We shall
wait and watch as time tells it’s tale….
