Ice Queen

Life's just unfair, every-time i think things are finally getting okay they just come crashing down like a house of cards. I'm honestly getting crushed between keeping everyone happy. I do the right thing for one and the other is upset. I just can't seem to get it right! Why can't everybody just be happy for me or accept what i want. Ooops... wait no body even asked what i wanted. They just  try to tell me whats good for me and i'm supposed to make everything happen!! what a says has to happen and what B says has to happen and what about me?? I do appreciate advice and yes i do want to take it but sometimes you just can't make it happen but no it's still entirely my fault.

Financial pressures are the worst., i can't wait till i don't have to rely on anyone for finances. Just because someone else has me by their purse strings they marionette me around and then the others don't like the decisions that i have to make because of this. I thought that the "Rein of Tears" had finally come to an end  but no. Alas i still have to cry for the choices forced upon me by others as my own mistakes. It's just unfair. Life's just unfair. 

You know what's the worst part, it's feeling like being stabbed and bleeding but you don't actually bleed out and there's no relief, not even in tears. Despair and dereliction  is what marks that which is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. I feel like laughing a really really sad laugh. Grin and life goes on. 

Then they ask me why are you becoming the ice queen....

Right and Wrong

Why is it that every single time we try to do something right we always end up doing it wrong! I thought i was doing the right thing by helping the love of my life, but turns out that things got messed up because of me. What hurts most is that i was never blamed for it till date. I'm so sorry about everything but it doesn't matter cause it's done. Now and forever i'll alway only be the person who messed up. 

"The one who messed up my opportunity."

I'm only human... am i not entitled to mistakes. If i try to talk about being positive and working hard then i become the fool who thinks everything can be solved. I don't know what i can do anymore. I just feel like an incompetent failure. All i wanted was for us to be together and for my love to smile and laugh and be happy. To reciprocate all the happiness i get and more but i guess all thats left is a few smashed eggs and half baked omelettes'.  At least i'm glad i know what i'm truly though of as. Now i don't need to have any false expectations. I just hope i don't get viscous, i tend to do that. I that that side of me but i really mean it when i say it and i say it to hurt a person. Tit for tat. i should really stop that. Oh well... i guess we all need to work on our dark side. And so life goes on....

Drinking and Getting Drunk

There's a huge difference between drinking and getting drunk! Drinking makes us feel wonderful. You enjoy the smoothness of the alcohol, warm yourself up on the inside and get a little tipsy letting go of your inhibitions. That is drinking.

Getting drunk! is whole other thing. There you don't enjoy the drink you just drink for the fun of it. No savoring of the taste or dignified enjoyment of exquisite liquor. No... getting drunk is just chugging beer upon beer or mixing up shots of every variety to such an extent that you don't even remember the distinctions!! Getting smashed and not remembering anything you did.

People say it's fun, i find it awful. I really can't seem to see the fun in running away from reality. The realm of a drunk fantasy {that you don't remember and which makes you feel miserable and sick the next day} is just messed up. The "Tipsy Realm" however is truly fun. You are in your senses and with zero inhibitions. Now that's a reality to live, enjoy and remember! All the insanity and the reckless fun will always remain in your memories. Not to forget that the next morning instead of saying,

"I feel like shit. I think i had a blast...."

 {Followed by possible retching, massive migraines and temperamental behavior}

you'll say...

"I'm thirsty... What an AWESOME time we had list night. Man that was Legendary!"

{Followed by reminiscences of the fun YOU KNOW you had} 

So next time you decide to party, make sure you think about it. You wanna go drinking or do you wanna get drunk?

Message of the 3 idiots

I was watching the 3 idiots again today :) It's my feel good film :P

I felt that a few things that the movie really addresses are focussed on the education system of today and so i came up with this message that i think it was trying to spell out:

The movie the 3 idiots is an adaptation of the novel ‘5 point someone’ by Chetan Bhagat. It focuses on the pressures that the students have to go through because of the current education system. The movie starts out with the director of the engineering college preaching to everyone that life is a race, and if you don’t run behind success you will fail. However towards the end he too realizes that excellence is more important than success. I would like to bring to light two messages highlighted in the film and how true they are and also to discuss today’s changing times.

The first message is STOP PARROTING! START UNDERSTANDING! Simply mugging up without understanding what we are studying might get us good grades but it won’t help us later in life. Also when we understand what we are studying, it becomes easier to memorize since we can relate to it and put it in our own words. The speech made by the character ‘Chatur’ in the film shows us how damaging it can be to not have understood what you are talking about. He without knowing the meaning of the word ‘Balatkar’ used it several times in place of the word ‘Chamatkar’ and ended up making a fool of himself.

The second and the most important message in the film was ‘DON’T RUN BEHIND SUCCESS. ACHIVE EXCELLENCE AND SUCCESS WILL FOLLW!’ In the movie Amir Khan’s character ‘Rancho’ was in love with machines and he enjoyed studying only for the sake of gaining knowledge. He never strove to come first but he did because he attained excellence in his felid of interest. This just goes to show that if we channel our energy towards our interest and achieve excellence in that field, success will follow us wherever we go. Running behind success instead will divert our attention from our field of interest, and we will eventually be unhappy, since how successful we become, will be only a relative term, and there will always be someone better and more successful than us.

Knowledge is everywhere. You just need to identify and absorb it. Today the face of Indian education is changing with practical based courses such as BBA and MBA and more stress on application based examinations such as CAT. Soon enough the mugging up and spoon feeding of notes will have come to an end. This change will be welcome not only by the students but also by the corporate. It is true that staying in a bubble and continuing with the current system is easier but it is only when there is a certain amount of freedom of expression that creativity will truly flourish and if each one of us makes proper use of this freedom with responsibility, then we too can achieve our highest potentials and consequently success will follow.

Finally when in doubt just console your heart with ‘All izz well!!!’