Dreams

"A dream is a wish you heart makes when your fast asleep"

One of my favorite Disney classics of all times. There are so many things that come to mind when one says's dreams.

An image of self:

"I'm gonna be this!" it's the first time a dream takes shape. The first sentence that begins the definition of self. An image of who we are or what we want to be. We are so passionate about it and so sure that this is definitely it! and every single time this sentence is repeated it is a new facet we discover. Dream is a journey to the realization of self though analysis driven by passion and interest.

A wish:

A place, an object even a person can be a wish. We always dream about it. We imagine our life with the wish coming true. The implications yet again driven by wishful thinking and blinded by passion. I use the word passion again because we are so charge and euphoric and attracted to it that we hinder any other result save for the one we perceive to be the one coming true.

A Subconscious thought:

Something we see, someone we meet, a though process, an idea, a minute observation made anything that we interacted with directly or indirectly that sticks. It first takes the form of words then images. This is fueled by a natural human gift of a fertile imagination. People may disagree and say i know people who can't think outside the box, i say it's those ones who have the most magnificent dreams but yet can't remember them since they are classically conditioned and programmed to not explore.

Past lives:

In school there was a fad that suddenly came up that dreams are visions we have of our past lives. I found that so intriguing that i actually read up all sorts of books on understanding dreams and the works of the subconscious mind. Granted, it may be 'mystical' art but i don;t think i was cut out for it. My dreams go left right and center across peoples and places and it is so hilarious the conclusions i drew. For those who may be experts in the art a few comments to this posts would be sincerely appreciated so as help me introspect my current and/or past life.

Premonition:

A million times it has happened with me. 'Deja Vu' ! i have been in circumstances wherein i'm so sure i have seen a situation or a place before. It is scary and wondrous all at the same time. The fact so remains that yes we do use 100% of our brain subconsciously. Also that we have an immense potential within us to change the tides of the future or craft them to our will.

So what is a dream? is it a wish, a thought a premonition or an image of self or is it something completely unique that transcends all explanation whatsoever? 

One of the many mysteries of life -  Dreams.... !

Choices

It always gets worse before it gets better... Didn't know the meaning of this phrase until of late.

Things did get worse... but they are getting better...

Found the one person who i love and who loves me back the way i  want to be loved back.

The financial pressures though not over are now no longer in anyone else's hands but mine.

It's getting tough, i have to be strong for the one i love. I even made a choice to prioritize family over career, it may seem messed up but it makes me happy. I have at least enough confidence to believe that i will do something with my life even if my current professional life spins out of control. 

Choices are a funny thing, you never know if you've made the right one. You just have to have faith in yourself and believe that you have. I believe that the right choice is the one that brings peace eventually. 

  

War Does Not Bring Peace

There were 3 more blasts in Mumbai, India again. One of them was at a bus-stop. It is not political or regional or even terror. It's just plain sad. Have we ever though how much emotion is present in a bus-stop. People eagerly waiting to go home. There could have been a newly married man/woman eagerly waiting to rush home to their significant other. A girl who might have just kissed goodbye to her boyfriend. A mother waiting to see her child. In a flash it's all gone. Just finished and wiped off the face of this earth leaving nothing but sadness in the hearts of a lot of people.
Whatever maybe the reason, such an act is not justified. It does not bring peace to anyone. Not to the people who did it, or those who faced it or even those were struck by it.  It's just sad how people create puns about it or think of it as a suitable topic for debate or create a chat show.
It's sad, that's all it is... it never has brought peace and neither will it ever bring peace. 

Ice Queen

Life's just unfair, every-time i think things are finally getting okay they just come crashing down like a house of cards. I'm honestly getting crushed between keeping everyone happy. I do the right thing for one and the other is upset. I just can't seem to get it right! Why can't everybody just be happy for me or accept what i want. Ooops... wait no body even asked what i wanted. They just  try to tell me whats good for me and i'm supposed to make everything happen!! what a says has to happen and what B says has to happen and what about me?? I do appreciate advice and yes i do want to take it but sometimes you just can't make it happen but no it's still entirely my fault.

Financial pressures are the worst., i can't wait till i don't have to rely on anyone for finances. Just because someone else has me by their purse strings they marionette me around and then the others don't like the decisions that i have to make because of this. I thought that the "Rein of Tears" had finally come to an end  but no. Alas i still have to cry for the choices forced upon me by others as my own mistakes. It's just unfair. Life's just unfair. 

You know what's the worst part, it's feeling like being stabbed and bleeding but you don't actually bleed out and there's no relief, not even in tears. Despair and dereliction  is what marks that which is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. I feel like laughing a really really sad laugh. Grin and life goes on. 

Then they ask me why are you becoming the ice queen....

Right and Wrong

Why is it that every single time we try to do something right we always end up doing it wrong! I thought i was doing the right thing by helping the love of my life, but turns out that things got messed up because of me. What hurts most is that i was never blamed for it till date. I'm so sorry about everything but it doesn't matter cause it's done. Now and forever i'll alway only be the person who messed up. 

"The one who messed up my opportunity."

I'm only human... am i not entitled to mistakes. If i try to talk about being positive and working hard then i become the fool who thinks everything can be solved. I don't know what i can do anymore. I just feel like an incompetent failure. All i wanted was for us to be together and for my love to smile and laugh and be happy. To reciprocate all the happiness i get and more but i guess all thats left is a few smashed eggs and half baked omelettes'.  At least i'm glad i know what i'm truly though of as. Now i don't need to have any false expectations. I just hope i don't get viscous, i tend to do that. I that that side of me but i really mean it when i say it and i say it to hurt a person. Tit for tat. i should really stop that. Oh well... i guess we all need to work on our dark side. And so life goes on....

Drinking and Getting Drunk

There's a huge difference between drinking and getting drunk! Drinking makes us feel wonderful. You enjoy the smoothness of the alcohol, warm yourself up on the inside and get a little tipsy letting go of your inhibitions. That is drinking.

Getting drunk! is whole other thing. There you don't enjoy the drink you just drink for the fun of it. No savoring of the taste or dignified enjoyment of exquisite liquor. No... getting drunk is just chugging beer upon beer or mixing up shots of every variety to such an extent that you don't even remember the distinctions!! Getting smashed and not remembering anything you did.

People say it's fun, i find it awful. I really can't seem to see the fun in running away from reality. The realm of a drunk fantasy {that you don't remember and which makes you feel miserable and sick the next day} is just messed up. The "Tipsy Realm" however is truly fun. You are in your senses and with zero inhibitions. Now that's a reality to live, enjoy and remember! All the insanity and the reckless fun will always remain in your memories. Not to forget that the next morning instead of saying,

"I feel like shit. I think i had a blast...."

 {Followed by possible retching, massive migraines and temperamental behavior}

you'll say...

"I'm thirsty... What an AWESOME time we had list night. Man that was Legendary!"

{Followed by reminiscences of the fun YOU KNOW you had} 

So next time you decide to party, make sure you think about it. You wanna go drinking or do you wanna get drunk?

Message of the 3 idiots

I was watching the 3 idiots again today :) It's my feel good film :P

I felt that a few things that the movie really addresses are focussed on the education system of today and so i came up with this message that i think it was trying to spell out:

The movie the 3 idiots is an adaptation of the novel ‘5 point someone’ by Chetan Bhagat. It focuses on the pressures that the students have to go through because of the current education system. The movie starts out with the director of the engineering college preaching to everyone that life is a race, and if you don’t run behind success you will fail. However towards the end he too realizes that excellence is more important than success. I would like to bring to light two messages highlighted in the film and how true they are and also to discuss today’s changing times.

The first message is STOP PARROTING! START UNDERSTANDING! Simply mugging up without understanding what we are studying might get us good grades but it won’t help us later in life. Also when we understand what we are studying, it becomes easier to memorize since we can relate to it and put it in our own words. The speech made by the character ‘Chatur’ in the film shows us how damaging it can be to not have understood what you are talking about. He without knowing the meaning of the word ‘Balatkar’ used it several times in place of the word ‘Chamatkar’ and ended up making a fool of himself.

The second and the most important message in the film was ‘DON’T RUN BEHIND SUCCESS. ACHIVE EXCELLENCE AND SUCCESS WILL FOLLW!’ In the movie Amir Khan’s character ‘Rancho’ was in love with machines and he enjoyed studying only for the sake of gaining knowledge. He never strove to come first but he did because he attained excellence in his felid of interest. This just goes to show that if we channel our energy towards our interest and achieve excellence in that field, success will follow us wherever we go. Running behind success instead will divert our attention from our field of interest, and we will eventually be unhappy, since how successful we become, will be only a relative term, and there will always be someone better and more successful than us.

Knowledge is everywhere. You just need to identify and absorb it. Today the face of Indian education is changing with practical based courses such as BBA and MBA and more stress on application based examinations such as CAT. Soon enough the mugging up and spoon feeding of notes will have come to an end. This change will be welcome not only by the students but also by the corporate. It is true that staying in a bubble and continuing with the current system is easier but it is only when there is a certain amount of freedom of expression that creativity will truly flourish and if each one of us makes proper use of this freedom with responsibility, then we too can achieve our highest potentials and consequently success will follow.

Finally when in doubt just console your heart with ‘All izz well!!!’

Death, Disappointment & Quantum Physics

Human life is as fragile as the dreams we dream. I witnessed the shattering of both today.

Some1 i know lost their mother today, though i'm not very close to them or their family i find myself in no position to imagine their loss, grief or however it is you put it. The family was shattered and i was awkward. It's not the first time I've had to attend a funeral, however most of the time i find myself at a loss of expression. I suppose i lost some1 dear to me relatively young in my life. My grandfather, before i even understood death, he was gone, i wonder if that's what made me indifferent to this particular event in life. The only things  that pass my mind are, "it's gone, it's over, it's not coming back, so why bother to lament, let's just move on and show them that we relish their memories and smile" 

Shattering of dreams however affects me worse than death. I suppose i live in a dreamland. I love indulging in speculating and wishful thinking. I'm a great believer in the "Secret" and i do believe in the laws of quantum physics, however it could be that some things are just not meant to be. I wonder if the cosmos and quantum physics clash or overlap at some plane. I gave tons of positive thought, doubtless positive though to a wish but it went over-budget in the real world. I suppose we need to learn how to sleep with our eyes open now. That i think would the perfect recipe to making an outstanding reality for oneself. 

So cheers to that and hopefully a job well done in crisis management!! ;)

The Evolution Of Ants!

Once upon a time humans and ants co-existed peacefully as there was abundance of everything. Then we began to over populate and ants became a nuisance. the earliest i remember of purging ants
{and no i'm not "The ant bully" i just looooove my candy ^_^}
was with my dad...


Every Sunday usually in the months closer to the monsoons my dad and i would fill injections with a mixture of Beygon and Kerosene and mark the trial of the ants... it was almost like an adventure following them though the nailed carpets, out door's, windows or ventilators... finally we would arrive at the nest and inject it till it overflowed...


Perseverance is a trait only an ant can teach you... No matter how many times we did this they would always be back! Sometimes in a month... sometimes after the monsoon... and so my father and i continued our monthly or bi-monthly adventures...


Then came the housewife's boon... the invention of the fabled "LAXMANREKHA" a medicated chalk which would kill ants if they tried to cross a line drawn using it!! oh every woman in India loved it... it was as essential as having soap!! and resultantly needless to say the little adventures dad and i had reached the "Thus endeth the saga!" climax.


The ants however have evolved a step further and i recently discovered that they have overcome the great laxmanrekha! they are no longer affected by it and continue, much to my dismay to purge my lovely jam...
At this point i request the reader to take a bow...


To these heroes of evolution, who have managed to evolve with every obstacle in their path. One might even say that they are second only to humans in their achievement of the theory of "Survival of the Fittest", though one might point out that if we ever had the order and discipline of the ants, the humans might have well been on their way to intergalactic glory as the most advanced race ever...